A Beautiful Between

Together, we are living in the gaps.

With the tension of unfulfilled dreams.

With the heartache of loss and the sickness of deferred hope.

Somewhere along the way, we run right into that painful space between what is and what should be. We hope for relationships, for children, for jobs. We long for healed bodies and souls, a better future, just a taste of success. Sometimes, we simply long to know we matter.

And maybe, just maybe, we’re all looking for friends for this journey. Maybe we’re looking to laugh and cry and make sense of this life with others who won’t make us feel ashamed of our pieces. Maybe we’re looking for hope that a life of soul holes and unfulfilled dreams can still be meaningful and joyful.

That’s what this blog is about. Together, we can create a place of honesty and safety, of compassion and challenge. We can take our unfulfilled desires and dreams and make them meaningful.

And not just for us, but also for the broken spaces in the lives and world around us. This breathtaking planet is full of sunrises and mountaintops and crashing ocean waves. It’s also full of devastation and terror and disease.

This is not how life was meant to be. Mothers see their children born without beating hearts and breathing lungs or watch them succumb to starvation. Greed births corruption and oppression. We watch nations destroy their own people. Illness and sorrow and grief shouldn’t be woven into the fabric of our everyday reality.

But they have been. And now we all live with this damaged world. We occupy these gaps and wonder if we can change anything in our own lives, let alone in the world at large. We may hope or believe for better, but today, we live between the now and the not yet.

This is where I live.

Don’t get me wrong: I love my life. Many days, I wonder how I could ever be so blessed. But there are holes that hurt, places I still long to go, experiences and dreams that elude me.

Some days, my not yets slip into the background and are barely remembered. I forget the brokenness around and in me. I face life with passion and excitement, plunging in headlong with a full heart. Other days, they howl for attention and singe the edges of my soul. If I let them, they steal my joy and fill me to the brim with jealousy, pain and despair.

But there is a better way, for me and for you.

I would never cheapen the ache of waiting or grief or failure by denying its importance in our lives. But I also know that there is joy and a glimmer of hope even in the darkest days.

We can find it together.

We can refuse to waste our lives in longing for what we don’t have.

We can step into the gaps in our lives and the lives of others and bring a bit more wholeness and joy to them.

We can make this a beautiful between.